ever vacillating lights
change is inevitable
Here is little you, sitting by the window of your parents car, wondering why the moon is trailing you, why the lights are shifting. There is never an answer for change.
And it feels so often as we go through living learning and unlearning that the only constant reality is that change is inevitable.
It happens in split seconds, in little moments lingering for you to follow along, to accept that what you have know has shifted to what you must learn to be comfortable with.
It may feel like the rip of a Band-Aid, stripping an identity, that tight adhesive of who you were and all you once knew.
Change will change us(ironic) ,change will wreck us into a million little pieces, but that is what we need.
‘Though he slay me yet I will trust him’-job 13:15i am learning still that change may look like loss, like grief, it is often hard to divulge the two, to grieve an existence lost to bundle up those lose pieces.
but I have learnt, in good and bad change alike, that it is all for my good, we tread closer to the truth of who we are when change doesn’t scare us anymore,
reflecting on this year, change has unraveled me, built me up again, I have learnt more than anything, that I am not a lost cause, and neither are you.
and as we come to a close, in budding anticipation for the new year, you have changed and you have learnt, and i am so so proud of you.
-with all the love in my heart
tshego♡